Insights from “Twelve-Meridian Balances” in Beijing at June
June, 2012
The Biggest Realization from June’s Beijing Twelve-Meridian Balances
Inadvertent realization was my joy when attending the “Balances of Meridian” course, because such realization was often sudden enlightenment!
During the balances of this workshop, my body’s reactions were great. In the beginning I was a little nervous, but gradually I discovered that those large and small reactions were my body’s expressions! And these expressions all had corresponding origins. These happenings and discoveries brought about a fundamental change in the connection between myself and my body; my brain no longer dominated everything. When I started to feel the messages my body gave me, a more steadfast, softer, calmer life energy flowed through me, and I felt very comfortable and relaxed. Originally I always felt separated physically and mentally, and I was greatly troubled; after balancing, these heavy burdens became light and easy.
To be able to share with friends how balancing had brought joy to our lives was also a surprising gain from this workshop!
Li Ziyi (Beijing)
After four days of “Balances of the Eight Extraordinary Meridians” course with Instructor Conrad Ho, I felt I’ve benefited from it a lot; indeed, my brain did not give out orders as before, and seemed to have shut down. After these few days of “releasing qi, ” my belly returned to its normal, flat state, and was no longer bulging. However, the third day after returning home, that was 17th of June, my waist pain relapsed; though it didn’t reduce me immobile like last time, it did bring trouble to my daily life. Fortunately, on the morning of the 19th my waist relaxed and I seemed to be able to manage with my daily life. I discovered that the condition of my waist immediately improved as I had a change of thought on the morning of the 19th. In the course of a little more than three hours, it gradually relaxed and slowly returned to a state where I could carefully walk. The thought I changed was this: the relationship between parent and child is a very special one on earth; parents should be caring and loving, and sacrifice their all for their children.
In the beginning I was reviewing the fact that I did not accept my mother, and I felt that I should allow her to be herself: to allow her to not like cooking, not like doing housework, to have no perception of others’ feelings, and to have no tenderness or sympathy towards her children (let alone comforting others). She lived like this in her own word; to her, she was doing her best, or in other words, she felt that she had no other choice. When I thought about this, I suddenly realized I had always demanded myself with the standards of “the best mother. ” When I did not allow my mother to be “imperfect, ” my own role as a mother that I was carrying was also very strict, and the demands were harsh. Once I saw this, I really began to allow my mother to do what she believed to be right in her own world. Just as children in the kindergarten are all born different, there are many varying versions of mothers. Therefore, my mother was like this; this was the best she could do. As such, I began to allow myself to not like cooking and doing housework, to allow myself not to be so hard on myself to become what I understood to be “the best mother. ” When I thought about this, my waist relaxed a little at that moment, and I could slightly stood straight. Then, the more understanding I had on this matter, the more relaxed my waist got, and now I can apparently walk normally to work.
Now when I look at parent-child relationships, I feel that everyone has their own way of “going along the way, ” and that each family and group has their own combination of “going along the way. ” The key is not how others do or treat you; the key is to walk towards your own way of “going along the way. ” Therefore, from now on I will perceive more at each moment, and know how to go along the “way” of my life’s track. This also confirms what Instructor Ho said: the goal of accepting my mother is actually of accepting myself.
Mei Mei (Beijing
