40-Year-Old Woman Pretty as a Flower

CHEN Yan Bing
(Shenzhen, China)

This day, I turned 40. When I was a young girl, I dared not imagine what I would look like at 40 years of age. I even did not allow myself to laugh out loud, fearing that wrinkles would grow fast. This day, I was 40, but was living in a carefree way, with a feeling of being like a flower blooming (pardon me for my praising myself). It had to be a benevolent side effect of my practicing Kinesiology, and my being hopelessly in love with balancing.

In early November, I joined the “sense of humidity balance” workshop of the “Basic Life Skills” balancing series by Conrad Ho. Before it, I knew I could not stand dry weather in dry places. Though having grown up on the dry plateau of the Yunnan province, I never got used to the dry climate there. Each time I went back for family reunion during the Chinese New Year, my whole body felt uncomfortable. In serious occasions, I had to be rushed to the hospital; in minor cases, headaches were rampant. My old friends laughed at me for my “forgetting” my roots in Yunnan, but the noxious feelings were real! Eventually, my family came to Shenzhen for reunion instead of my going back.

I never really understood why so, until after the balance of the sense of humidity. I had been too sensitive to humidity changes for too long, so that the body became numb to them. The body did not know though the humidity was already off the limits of my comfort zone, so it did not adjust, which eventually led to the body “crashing”. Right after the balancing session, no particular feeling popped up, till one day recently, my husband suddenly came to the realization that I did not complain anything though the weather those days was dry. His comment did ring a bell in me. Yeah! Before, in such weather, I would have yelled out loud, like a fish having jumped out of its tank. And I look down on my skin. Ooh! Still soft and supple. The balance of the sense of humidity was not only effective, but also saving money for me.

These days, as I was anticipating the “Authentic Woman Casework Training” by Amy Choi in mid-December, I was so anxious that I was counting my fingers. Great! Life for me in the current stage was feeling like springtime. I felt nothing bad about turning 40. I could sense myself transforming, with inner beauty seeping and diffusing out, drop by drop.