Please treat yourself tenderly
by He Jing Hua, Shenzhen, November 13 2016
It was the day before the “super moon” appeared, and the second day of TFH Casework Workshop (2nd half). We had five sound balancing in the morning.
I started my exploration with the emotionally sensitive spots of the body. Through emotional association, I found that the issue was the relationship between me and my mother. I traced back to the complex emotion of anxiety, disappointment, unfairness and guilt caused by the separation with my mother. After I bawled angrily in a shattering and terrifying manner, my feeling started to emerge. I then cried and did things like hugging my mother etc.. Finally, the balancing was finished.
This balance was historical: I accepted the maternal love from mothers of all generations, and ended the tangle between mothers and daughters of all generations.
This balance was forward looking: I can finally say loudly,“Mom, I love you with all my heart.” That would be the new support in my life and the ever lasting power of love.
We had balancing of the past in the afternoon.
Past events flashed back like lightning, as in a dream and a movie. I was filled with sadness, frustration, pain, confusion, disappointment, guilt…that I experienced in the past. Through self exploration, I found that I was the one who caused the trouble. I was always anxious for no reason, just like a homeless child struggling to survive in the world. I kept worrying about what to do. “I am integrated, body, mind and soul. Just be myself, live my life”. I made peace with and said goodbye to my past using the Chinese Five Element Metaphor One Point balancing. Going forward, I would be far-sighted, peaceful, and would stay in touch with my mind and soul!
I am grateful for the support of my instructors. In the process of Five Sound Balancing, I realised that I did not need to try so hard nor putting in too much effort. When I achieved the balance, the power of tenderness was suddenly awakened in my body, mind and soul. Tenderness is something that we do not have to strive for and will come easily. During the process of balancing the past, I treated myself tenderly, I interacted tenderly with the instructors, and I tenderly got a very “nice” goal. Tenderness was what I learnt and gained today. It was a coincidence, but it also seemed to be the natural consequence.
