An Inner Sense of Adequacy
She is a very rich lady in her late 40s. She lived in a big house, employed four maids, a body guard and a driver. Her husband, her children as well as friends constantly kept her in company. One day, she found out that she got a serious sickness and was advised to do surgery immediately. After a successful surgical operation, however, she suffered from depression. As a result, her physical and mental recovery was not going as smooth as normal patients could be. She decided to come for some balances.
During a balancing session, she told her life story of outer abundance but inner inadequacy. She acknowledged that she did not know how to enjoy abundance while she felt a threatening sense of insecurity and inadequacy. She said she was like the “chief secretary” for everyone in the family. From minute details like which windows in the house to open, to which prestigious school the children should go to and where to take the seniors for vacation, she was in charge, alone. She worked herself to exhaustion like that to produce results as proof to others of her value of existence. Still, despite jobs well-done, her heart was filled with a sense of inadequacy.
She was good at caring for others, but often neglected her own needs. For instance, the few televisions in her house were usually playing her husband’s favourite sports program and her children’s preferred movies, seldom her own beloved series. Her body gradually fell apart after all these years of self-less output and self denial.
This experience of fatal sickness and balancing sessions was an opportunity for her, to re-adjust her life style and values. The priority was to love herself, respect herself and feel inner adequacy.
